Monday, September 08, 2014

and I'm back!

Thanks for worrying about me and being concerned, and thanks for praying... those of you who pray.

They were unable to remove the IVC Filter. It is dug into the vein and is holding clots. This little metal shield is holding clots back from getting into my lungs. It will stay there.

I am unhappy on one hand and okay with it on the other hand. I don't want to get into the whys on either side. I'm just kind of not happy overall with the entire thing.

The doctor said that it is probably good this was there because it prevented clots from getting to my lungs but I told her I don't think so, I think my body attacked it and put clots around it, the way my body responds when I get hurt and it just throws clots all over the damn place like that will help. She said that she didn't think that was the case, that these were caught clots.

I want them to vacuum them out and take them away. I don't know if that's something they do. I'm exhausted from thinking about it.

so there's that. I'm home and everything is okay and I made a gorgeous New England baked haddock with Ritz crackers for dinner, because that's what I like. Comfort food is good you guys.

And I'm off to bed. tired and headachy and ...

love you. good night.


  1. oh jeez, just reading this now. sorry it did not go as planned. that kinda sucks. but if they sometimes just stay in...well, that's how it will be. just a little extra hardware is all.

    1. Thanks. I'm trying to only see the upsides but knowing that there are indeed downsides is bumming me out. I think if i were 57 or 67 instead of 47 this wouldn't bother me. the more years you have this, the more the likelihood of problems and i just don't want to deal with that. i'm kind of pissed off at my body at this point. thanks, body.

    2. given that then...maybe a second opinion is in order? there may be other options. there may be not, but it might be worth seeing someone else.

    3. I'm going to talk about that with my hematologist. right now the answer is "it is holding clots back from hitting your lungs so ... why would you want to remove it anyway?"


  2. Just sending some love to you!