(Started on Tuesday, finished Wednesday)
Monday night Doug was looking at a house he likes and he told me he wants to go look at it. The asking price is 415k. I told him that's too much. They need to come down below 400k. I'm not comfortable with over 400k.
He got snippy and said we qualify for this, we can pay it.
Yeah, just because we qualify for it, doesn't mean we should do it.
"Well, you want a house that doesn't need work, and things under 400 all need work." The tone implied that I'm the problem here. But no. I am not.
Yeah, but, a house could need work and the work waits. That's okay if it is livable. But fucking hell what if I lose my job. A mortgage of 2700. It will kill us. I need him to hear me on this. Please "in this economy" don't let us get fucked.
He was super angry with me. I didn't care. I lived through this in 2008. I am feeling a great deal of anxiety over this when he's looking at houses listed over 400 and "it's just an asking price, it is negotiable."
I had a mild panic attack on Monday night and went to bed, woke up, paced, went to the guest room, was awake for two hours, did not sleep at all well. Tuesday I didn't feel well all day. I feel like I fell down another flight of stairs. Back/neck/shoulders are killing me. Horrible headache. I started thinking "what are the symptoms of meningitis." Seriously, what are the symptoms of meningitis.
I don't think I have meningitis. Or Fibromyalgia. Or Guillain Barre. Or whatever.
But this sudden onset of pain, headache, and I don't know if I have a fever because we do not have a thermometer (they're all labeled "dog" and I keep forgetting to buy a new one) so I don't know if I'm dying.
I have to get a thermometer for humans.
Tuesday I drank a LOT of coffee. A lot. Maybe that's why I hurt all over? Stress, Anxiety, Coffee? I didn't put my heart into work, and I told the team I was going to rest at 3:30. We were awaiting a giant thunderstorm, and I laid in bed with the dog as it rolled in. Maybe the drop in barometric pressure is what's killing me? But over 2 full days?
I love Toffee so much. She's absolutely unbothered by thunder and lightning. She just looks out the window after the lightning flash, and cocks her head to the side with the rolling noise comes after. I wonder what dogs are thinking is happening.
Geoff needed a ride home, and we needed something for dinner, so I went to get him and had him go into Aldi for makings. I cooked dinner for us since he was so kind to go into the store, a good trade off. I ended up not even wanting dinner, so I crawled off to bed at 9-ish.
Doug is watching the Increasingly Poor Decisions of Todd Margaret, and I think we tried watching it a few years ago and gave up. But now he's elbows deep in it and I just can't stand it.
I hate every character on this show (except Alice, poor Alice, but even she's....meh). So I am sick of sitting here cringing, so I just went to bed. I think I was asleep in no time, Doug came to bed and I woke up. Pain, hot, uncomfortable.
If this doesn't break by tomorrow, I'm calling the doctor.
In other news, Doug's aunt gets the keys to her new rental house on Monday. Doug has gone above and beyond the call of family duty to help her and I'm happy he's done with her. Until she calls in a crisis this weekend because she can't hire a move on short notice and needs us to help. LOL. no.
The realtor she's working with has been calling Doug, because he's responsive. They were supposed to receive a check from her or a wire transfer, but she has done neither of those. And she's not answering her phone as of 11pm. Or all day. He just left her another voicemail. We'll see if she calls back while we're sleeping.
Work was good, busy, got a lot done. And the site launch worked out even though it almost did not. Mad props to my buddy B for being patient and not losing his mind on the call when the client was asking a lot of questions about how to do things, and all these things could be done after the site launch. They were not blockers. But they wanted a couple hours, so we gave them their wish after a stern lecture that we would not launch tomorrow because it is "Like a Friday" as Friday's a holiday, and Monday we're both booked, so the soonest the launch would happen would be Tuesday. They stuck with today. Still haven't gone face down in my spreadsheet but maybe can do that tomorrow.
Took 2 walks today, both slow paced and I fell short of 10k but that is okay. Still not feeling the best and am hurty. I've noticed this year that we have so many fireflies! It finally got down to 80 degrees so it felt nice to be walking around out there, looking at them sparkle.
Digits below.
Tuesday digits
exercise: 12/12 hours. no walk. 4900+steps by bedtime
blood glucose:
8:15am: 106
5pm:115
11pm: 138
food & meds:
8:15am: phentermine+jardiance
12 noon: "skinny" rolls (15 g carbs) w/pb & jelly. wanted turkey but someone ate it all. bastard.
2pm: met+glip
6pm: small bowl of pasta and meat sauce (didn't finish it)
10pm: met+glip
Wednesday digits
exercise: 12/12 hours. 25 min. One internal house walk, 25 min for 1.05 miles; outside walk for 25 min and 1.07 miles. 8700+ steps by bedtime
blood glucose:
8:15am: 163
4pm: 137
11pm: 118
food & meds:
8:15am: phentermine+jardiance
1:15pm: skinny slices thing w/ tuna and 2 slices of cheddar
2:00pm: the rest of the tuna from the bowl (not enough to put away); met+glip
4pm: one leftover bratwurst
6pm: chili w/meat and beans, cheese, sour cream, fritos
white wine
10pm: met+glip
10:45pm:
