Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise

Because of the election coverage today, and the nature of our jobs, my boss did some creative time shifting of our team's schedules for today and tomorrow. 

I worked 9am-1pm today, then time shifted with1pm-5pm off. Back at it at 5 until 9pm. To be honest, I like the big block of no work in the middle of the day. To be honest through, it would have been no big deal to work through, make dinner at 5 or 6, and then come back to work with the elections coverage. 

Ending at 9pm felt a little early, so I did not. I didn't stop paying attention. Laptop still on lap, watching the East, Central, Mountain time zone reports coming in. 

Our teams work on web widgets to show election results. I love how hard the team works and makes things. We test them, we put them out, we trust our clients to use them, and tonight we have folks on hand to help if things go wrong. Me being one.

I worked long past 9, watching the results flow in, watching my colleagues working so hard, checking the helpdesk tickets, worrying about the website handling all the requests, worried about the traffic, hoping things didn't break. Chatting with the team. And feeling really sad. 

And I was thinking about songs that bring me solace. Lots of Guster songs obviously. And in my sad I thought of a song by the Avett Brothers, here for you below: 

There's a darkness upon me that's flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what's wrong and what's right
And it comes in black and it comes in white
And I'm frightened by those that don't see it 

When nothing is owed or deserved or expected
And your life doesn't change by the man that's elected
If you're loved by someone, you're never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it

Scott and Seth are right. Decide what to be and go be it. 

Be happy, Be kind, Be amazing, Be loving and supportive, Be the best person you can ever be. And I have a head full of doubt tonight but know we're on a road full of promise if we're on it together. 

This was a long day. And it'll be a long day tomorrow. And it'll be a long 4 years. But come with me. Let's decide what to be and go be it. Let's get out of bed tomorrow. 

And as Guster sings, "Onward..."

 Digits below. 

digits

exercise: 12/12 hours. forgot to start my fitbit to count the treadmill time, Kicked it in 2 min late. after I started, fitbit reports, 31 minutes/1.30 miles.  10k + steps by bedtime

blood glucose:

8:45am: 187
5pm: 188
10pm: 191

food:
coffee/water
10:30: everything bagel with onion/chive cream cheese
11am: Metformin
12pm: bowl of mac & cheese w/bacon, extra queso dip mixed in.
6pm: metformin+jardiance; bowl of rice topped w/thai sauced chicken and asparagus
High Noon seltzer (it is election night, after all)
7-8pm: 2 giant bowls of popcorn
9pm: 2 baby bell cheeses