Animals are gonna animal

My focus when taking the dogs outside has been firmly on Dahlia the fence jumper. Toffee is just so good outside, unless she does not want to come in. And even then, heck. Stay outside while I take goober dog back in. It's okay. You won't jump the fence. You don't even bark at people and other animals. 

You are the good dog.

I was out with both of them a little earlier than we usually go out but Dahlia was signaling that it would be nice to go out.  Toffee was nowhere to be seen, which is never an issue. Dahlia did a pee and I was praising her for being so good. She was off leash, came over to get her cookie reward because whenever I say "OH MY GOSH YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD GIRL!" she's like "hell yeah I am. Gimme a cookie." Bringing cookies outside with me to reward her has helped with her coming back when I call, or when I say Hey, No. She will turn and make eye contact and come back to me. She's doing pretty good with that.

Toffee came zooming past us at a thousand miles an hour. I had no idea that girl could book it like that. I saw a woman across the street with her Golden Retriever, so I bent over to leash Dahlia. For as good as she's been, I was wearing flip flops. I wouldn't be able to chase her.

I needed about 1500 steps for the day so I figured, it's the 8pm hour, it is very nice out... let's just knock this out together. Or at least most of it. 

That's when I saw the rabbit. Dahlia saw it too, and I had her on the leash so I pulled tight. The rabbit was looking for a way out of the yard.

And here comes Toffee. 

Rabbit takes off around the front of the house, I tell Toffee no, and Dahlia and I go in pursuit. We ended up circling back to the backyard, where Toffee chased the rabbit under the deck with me yelling at her to stop. I called for Doug. 

I heard the rabbit scream. I heard Toffee snarling. 

I saw her shake the poor stupid rabbit like a stuffed animal. And it was over. Doug came to the back door and I told him what happened, and that Toffee had gone into the bushes on the side of the house toward the front. I brought Dahlia in through the back door while he headed outside. 

With Dahlia safe inside, I went back out the front door and Toffee was cowering in the yard. Doug was assuring her to come inside. She nudged the rabbit with her nose, he told her to leave it, go inside. She listened. She followed me. She got her cookie for coming in.

The rabbit tried to get up and go, but its back must have been broken. I stroked it and apologized. It flopped over onto its side, and breathed hard, then the breaths came farther apart until they stopped. 

Shit, my dog just killed a bunny. Seeing as last night I wondered if she was fast enough (oh boy is she ever) and I wondered what she'd even do if she caught one (uh, now we know) it's kind of sad that we found out so quickly. 

The rabbit scratched her above her left eye. It's a superficial gash but it is long. We put some neosporin on it. We'll watch it. 

I didn't want this today. Heck, I wouldn't want this any fucking day. But there you go. Dogs got that predator/prey instinct. While during the summer last year she was so loving and kind to a baby bird that fell out of the nest, I didn't expect her to be the one to kill a small creature. I thought for sure Dahlia would be the one to do something like this. 

I'm not mad at her. She did what dogs do, even domesticated dogs. And I've watched my neighbor's cat kill birds. Animals are gonna animal. And it is a hard world for small things. 

Going to bed sad. And thinking of the other buns in the yard. I wish they weren't there. I don't want to think about this happening again.

I didn't take a picture of the rabbit. I thought of it, but it just seemed cruel and wrong. 

Digits below.

digits

exercise: 12/12 hours. Indoor and outdoor walk, 10 min. while cooking part of dinner, 12 min. with Dahlia up the street and back. 22 min total/1.06 miles. Needed 1500 steps, did a quick 10 min around the house for .41 miles. 10k+ by bedtime

blood glucose:

10am: 175
5:15pm: 133
10:30pm: 118

food:
coffee/water/tea
10am: phentermine; met+glip
12pm: english muffin w/pb
6pm: met+glip
6:45pm: one chorizo quesadilla w/melted cheddar on 2 small low-carb wraps, sour cream
white wine + diet ginger ale