Last night I kind of slept okay, I had the windows open and the new air purifier running. It pumps out cool air, which is nice. But mom's house is so hot - and the furnace is pumping. I just looked down the hall to her in bed, in fleecey jammies covered in blankies and completely wrapped up, and I am in a t-shirt and shorts sweating balls. Absolutely Sweating Balls.
sigh.
Today was a pretty good day overall. I got to call the company that handles her life insurance and talk to them about how the auto-pay my sister set up didn't work, and asked for them to refund the late fees because ... not our mistake, not our fault. The girl made it sound like we were pulling food out of a starving baby's mouth. Oh what a hardship it is to give us back thirty dollars when your CEO makes 17.4 MILLION DOLLARS a year. Oh thank you for your kindness! Oh thank you so much.
Fuck all y'all.
Anyway. I got that taken care of. Mom's neighbor came to visit because she knew I was here and we had a nice catch up. Always fun to see her. She's a hot ticket.
We went to mom's favorite foodrinkery for lunch. She's been miffed since the establishment was sold, and now they are using hamburger buns that are TOO HARD! and so she's been eating tuna boats. One of her friends suggested the kids burger on toasted white bread.
Well.
Game changer. Toasted white bread for the win. Felt like a victory.
A man I didn't know (and she wasn't sure who he was) bought our drinks (soda, during the workday for me, thank you) and he came over and gave her a hug and a peck.
Another guy named Charlie came in, and I've never met him. But he gushed on my mom and gave her big hugs, and then turned his affections to me. Like. It made me a little uncomfortable. Dude, we do NOT know each other do not kiss me on the top of my head? But mom and her lady friend Sue both knew him well and he was tickled to see her today, and meet me.
Sometimes it is just weird, how ... loving? kind? etc? everyone is to mom. She gets to be kind of a rock star that she never was many years ago. People like Shirley. Go figure.
And by extension, they like me?
The waitresses and bartenders at the foodrinkery all came over to hug on her, and when they saw me there, they were thrilled to see me too. Joanie, Casey, and "Shorty..." Got more than my fair share of greetings and hey how are ya? So good to see ya! etc.
"It is so nice of you to come in! Didn't know you were coming to visit! Mom didn't say anything!" says Shorty. Kiss Kiss Hug Hug.
She commented that I looked like I've lost a lot of weight. Well, since I was last here, no? but over the last five years, yes. A lot.
My mother said "Yeah but she still has this," and poked me in the belly.
Tell me how I didn't just fucking punch her in the face right then. But. Yeah. I still have a fat belly.
Shorty said "that's always the last to leave us ladies." She's so kind. "but Wow I can totally see it in your face!" Mom's friend Sue chimed in that she noticed over the last year that I indeed had lost weight and was looking good.
I told them about the Fitbit, the daily 10k, how I'm doing it the best I can. Sue goes to the Y every day at 5am to walk with her best friend, and her friend goes swimming after they do several laps around the track, and she keeps going. Shorty runs 5 miles every morning before her kid even is up to go to school. We all talked about where we are doing our best, and how we are ... going to keep going.
Sue is on day 200 something of 5 miles of walking (far more than my 10k steps) and said she's staying on track for 365 days. I told her I love that for her.
Everyone made me feel better about things, and I did not punch my mother in the face for poking my fat belly.
Only moms can make you feel shitty like that when you are doing your absolute fucking most best, right?
When I'm here at her house, I don't walk around as much inside like I do at home. after lunch I realized I was way behind on steps for the day. I took myself for a quick neighborhood walk. I was disappointed to not see any dogs out and about. There are usually a lot of little doggies around. It is a 1.3-ish mile loop, and you can add on little alcoves and little dead ends if you want, to lengthen the walk. Mom lives on a circle, and you can always go extra around and arounds for that thing.
At 7:50 I took myself for another walk, should have gone around the circle a second full time to push up over the mile. But in the end, got everything I needed.
My new wireless bluetooth earbuds are working out nicely. I'm kind of excited about them. But they don't fit in my ears right. I find the left one fits better in my right ear, and vice versey, kind of bizarre.
Still.
Tomorrow, my morning is incredibly free, so I may just flex some time and take mom's car for the inspection sticker. My cousin Bill and I may meet for dinner. Mom doesn't think she wants to come but I might just make her.
And I'll try to do a solid 30 min of walking somewhere along the line in the day to not have to do multiple trips round the park here. Although, what I used to think was a hill is a nothing burger now. Your girl, she's killing it.
Digits below.
digits
exercise: 12/12 hours. Two Walks, 25 min walk outside, 1.31 miles. After Dark with the head lamp! 18 min/.95 mi. 10k+ steps by bedtime
blood glucose:
7:45am: 85 (checked 3x. seemed very low compared to previous checks)
4:45pm: 131
10:45pm: 90
food & meds:
7:45am: phentermine+jardiance
8:30am: premier protein shake (trying to drink these for mom and get them out of her fridge)
through the morning - several lil'handfuls of honey roasted cashew mix while walking through the kitchen...
1:30pm: buffalo tenders over small side salad w/bleu cheese dressing
3pm: met+glip (forgot to take right after lunch...)
7pm: turkey and gouda on low-carb bread w/mayo.
more honey roasted cashew mix through the evening.
white wine+ no sugar cranberry juice
8:30pm: met+glip
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