Anxiety

This morning, I woke up early. Doug had a meeting at 8am so his alarm went of at 7:15 but the dogs were already up and ready. He didn't snooze, and took care of feeding them and going outside. I went into the kitchen where Geoff was pacing. 

Geoff. You know this kid. You've read this blog for 20 something years. New things trigger an anxiety response for him, and I knew today would be no different so I wanted to be sure to touch base. 

He's starting a mid-semester class today, in person. He adulted on this many times to get it going. He had to work with his boss to reorganize his schedule so he could leave early on Wednesdays (done), he has to drive so we made sure the car is in good working condition (done), he logged into the school portal to check on the class information. 

Oh no.

The class was greyed out in the available academic sessions. Even though today is the start day. Panic. PANIC! Why is it greyed out? hovering over the class the message said "Class is not available, email the instructor with questions."

So he tried to find a way to email the instructor but he's not listed in the staff directory. 

More panic.

All of this before 6am, mind you. He got up early to check on the online portal dealie and now is in pacing and panic mode. 

I offered advice. "If you can't find him in the staff directory, you can email the college and ask about it? Maybe the system doesn't activate the class information in the portal until class day."

What if it was canceled? He asked.

If it was, they'd have emailed you. They wouldn't screw you over and not communicate.

I have to drive over an hour to get there. What if it is canceled and they didn't send out the notifications?

That's why you should find someone else to email if you can't find the instructor on the website. 

He went downstairs and came up about 20 minutes later. 

The class had been activated (yay) and he could go into the room, but nothing for his session was in there, just the first half of the semester. Assignments due, deadlines. 

I told him that someone maybe made a mistake and put it in as a 15 week class on accident. I'm sure his instructor will let him know what's happening, in person, tonight, at class. But he now has an email address and can email the guy. He opted not to. He had to get ready to go to work. 

I tried to get him to make a side quest first and go to target. We're out of dog cookies (oh no!) so we have these tiny pupperoni training treats and that doesn't cut it. Both dogs are looking at me with side eye when I pass that off to them. He wasn't having it, it's too much to plan to run an errand and make it to work on time at 11am when it is 9am. You know. Can't be late.

Work was good today even with some high drama out in the world. I worked with a client to try and resolve an issue with their website, and her 3 yr old daughter was home with her. We got to know each other very well. I told my client that my kid says I "set children on fire." And I kind of did with her little one. 

Doug came up around 5pm and suggested we take a walk. I had just did a solid 10 min (dedicated 10, friends!) with the dogs, outside for 6 minutes around the yard and then finishing it up in the house. I caved to the knowledge that yes, we should. Both dogs need to be walked, not just one. He wanted to be home in time for the news, so it was a solid 20 minutes. Not too hot, not too cold, no wind. Just right. Just right. And extra steps for the day.

I decided I'd make a pie, since we had some ingredients on hand, and I made a graham cracker crust for another cheesecake. It is a no-bake pie, and has to chill in the fridge, so making it at 8pm was stupid. I wasn't going to cut it open at 9 or 10pm. Saving that for tomorrow! 

Geoff got home from around 8:30 tonight and seemed very happy.  He said he's one of the oldest people in the class. It's interesting, this is a required course for the associates degree (he has a certificate) and several people in the class are in the health sciences program or have no decided major. He's the only one in his program. So he thought that was super unique. I told him he should hopefully feel comfortable sharing information about his program (which he loves) for students who are undeclared. 

Technically I'm off tomorrow and Friday. Linda is headed this way tomorrow and staying here. Friday we go to DC for Hotel Pool Day Drinking and Guster. 

I feel like I need this more than I can possibly fathom. As do so many. 

And I'll have pie tomorrow. 

With my day off, it will be cleaning cleaning cleaning, and I'll see if I can get Geoff to do that Target trip tomorrow so we have dog treats. I'm excited about not waking up and working immediately. I do have this ongoing issue with the client I was working with today, so I'll touch base with her I'm sure. But not a real work day. Looking forward to that.

didn't take a picture today, but. It was a good one overall. Pie tomorrow. digits below.

digits

exercise: 12/12 hours. indoors walk, Indoor walk10 min/.51 miles; Dog walk, 20 min/.90 mile. 11k+ steps by bedtime

blood glucose:

7:45am: 125
5pm: 100
10pm: 102

food:
coffee/water
7:45am: phentermine
10am: met+glip
1pm: bowl of BLT salad w/mixed baby greens
5pm: met+glip
6:30pm: nachos (chips, melted w/cheese, ground beef, sour cream)
white wine
8pm: jardiance