Thinking About Food

My doctor and I have emailed each other back and forth. She suggested that I cut back on carbs. Oh, okay. She listed out all the food I shouldn't eat, and I'm not surprised. Literally have had next to none of it. I offered to send her a spreadsheet of all the daily food I am tracking.

I am thinking I should start tracking in the report below the actual carbs/net carbs I'm eating so show that yeah, I've cut back? compared to 2 years ago, this time last year. But that feels like an eating disorder, actually tracking that info. I don't know. 

The food guidelines for triglycerides don't say to cut out all meat, which I thought it might, but to increase fish/oily fish. Which I can't really afford to do (who can?) Look at all my food and see pretty much chicken, chicken, chicken, some ground beef, some pork chops, chicken..... chicken. 

Aside from going meatless or full keto - which to be honest who has time for that shit - I'm kind of doing the best foods-wise? I know I could do better (sorry, Oreo cookies). More salad, more veg, more salad. I get it. Always with more salad.

But honestly. Who is being more honest and tracking their food than me? I track one cookie (and yeah, lots more cookies) so it doesn't lie.

I've asked if Metformin and Jardiance are the best meds for me, perhaps they're not helping any longer? Can a medication stop working? I know there are other meds on the market, perhaps a switch? 

I'm waiting to hear back from the nutritionist and continuing dialog with the doctor. 

I just know right now I'm bored and hungry. And thankfully there are no triscuits in the house. And one week from today is when we probably find out who is losing their job/s so. That's fun. I have a co-worker who is incredibly mad at me right now, and that's not fun. If one of us loses our job, it'll be a shit way to go out with each other, I think. 

Also, one thing to think of was I once worked in an office with several women who were all dieting at the same time, for different reasons and all they did was complain about what other people were eating and how they could not have it. 

Hopefully I'm not that person. 

"oh, you got a sub from Pizza Palace? That chicken cutlet sub with lettuce, tomatoes, cheese, mayo? Yeah., thanks. Thanks for eating that in front of me. I can't have that."

"oh okay, sorry you are starving yourself nearly to death but, I'm not."

Yet here I am like 30 years later. Unable to eat the yummy things. Sigh. Well, I'm not (hopefully) whining about it. 

That said.

No picture today, lads. Nothing interesting. 

Digits below. 

digits

exercise: 11/12 hours of 250 steps. Missed 8pm because I was playing a game on my phone and realized it was 8:58pm. doh.
Dedicated 10+12 steps in the house while dinner was cooking.

blood glucose:
8am: 148
4:30pm: 153
10pm: 178

food:
coffee, water
8:30am: 2 good yogurt (mixed berry)
12noon: metformin
12:30: Fuji apple w/peanut butter
4:30pm: ramekin smoked almonds; 2 baby bell
6:30pm: bowl of mac and cheese w/hamburger
9:00pm: protein shake